pardon me while i burst i want to scream at him that this is the wrong decision, that this, if he goes through with it, will screw up his life more than it already is. i want to tell him what to do, i want him to stay here, stay in school, stop fucking up his life. get his stupid fuck friends away from him, get them to stop incouraging him with this stupid idea. make him be best friends again with the boy that my best friend is going with, because he can get him on the right track. he tells me i'm one of the few who realize he has compassion in his heart. well, where is it now? i would tell him all these things. but i know he wouldn't listen.
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