there is no way out i am avoiding homework and humming christmas songs. feel euphoric for a day, and then take a week or so to be depressed. then level out. ... i'm still not sure what to do. should i stop altogether? try to figure something out? all i know is i'd like to come visit you. it is equal parts a wonderful and terrible idea. ... even if you decided to love me, we would be stuck, spiraling down, for so many reasons.
11.09.13