... i swear to god all i want is to know that someone feels the same things i do at the same time okay like i want to watch a movie with someone and when it's over i want them to be as invested in it as i am and be as affected by it as i am because i always, always am and why can't the world just work the way i want for it to i don't want to go and risk the chance of being someone to just fuck, i actually want a genuine connection with someone, i haven't felt that in such a long goddamn time and i have an interview in less than an hour and i sort of want it but honestly i think i'm better, i don't want a minimum wage job, i feel like i'm going nowhere and no one can stop it i'm so alone anymore
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