i am really lonely, okay? i woke up this morning at 4:45, wide awake. there was no reason for this, but i felt rested--then i heard the storming, the thunder that rattled my window. at 5:30 i fell back to sleep and dreamt people broke in and tried to murder me. when i got out of the shower, a spider dangled from the hall light and i couldn't gather the courage to kill it. times like these make me ache to have a warm body to lean against, to confide in, to protect me.
03.18.13